Empty eyes
One who walks along my side everyday
One who stands besides my bed every night
Staring at me with an empty look in it's eyes
One keeps me motivated all the time
But the other only stares at me from behind the mirror
When I reach a basin to wash down my tears every time
I abandoned my second self long ago
and I don't recognize it as a part of mine
But it's presence is invincible as the first,
When I discuss my life with my first self
and gather courage to fight and move
I notice my second self standing far behind
Yet staring strangely at me.
My second self is my childhood past
An abandoned soul of a childhood dead
Deprived of love and compassion
My second self follows me everywhere
When a man displays affection for me
My second self pleads to hold his hand
When the same man jilts me for someone else
My second self walks away, stands at a distance
and stares again at me, with empty look in it's eyes.
My brain and my first self curse me for such mistakes
But my sympathy for my second self defeats me every time
But my second self is not a loner always
It has my other selves as soul sisters
Some of them are mistakes of my teens
Some of them are broken jilted selves
They keep on increasing everyday
And all these lost selves of mine
Stare at me the same empty gaze.
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